An Honest Look At Myself

I'm FAT! I'm F-ing FAT!

It's not something I enjoy admitting and it's something I've shrugged off as "No worries I can lose it, I'm an elite cyclist, an athlete..." but not any more. I've realized that I'm in a place I've never been before and it's going to take some serious effort to get back to were I was 18 months ago. 18 months ago I was 170lbs and a competitive cyclist with an average weight but could of easily shed more lbs to be more competitive. My guess is 160-165lbs will make me even more competitive but right now I can't even think about that. I'm going to focus on the 90% that matters right now...just eating right and less, exercising daily and having fun with it, drinking lots of water, stretching and getting plenty of sleep. I'll focus on that 10% that will make me a fast cyclist when the time comes but right now I can't even do the 90% that matters. I'm about 195lbs and holding steady and of course with the holidays it's even harder but I've been this weight now for a year and it sucks. It's time to forget about all the things I did well and races I won in the past and start from ground zero. 2012 is my year. I know what I'm capable of and I'm out to prove to myself just that. It's time to shut up and let the legs do the talking. I can't wait.